As usual, Roger Ebert blows my mind.

I've been moody the past week for vague, unknowable reasons ... long-frustrated plans are finally in motion, blood reds cool into mellow pinks and certain puzzles yield clues I could not have foreseen, yet still my default setting is low gear. Ours is a neverending futility, with each victorious advance bringing new proof that nothing matters. But "act as if" might be the best advice I've gotten in years.